Monday, December 29, 2014

An unexpected change

Where do I start? What do I leave out and what do I keep just for me to know and remember? When faced with social media so many of us forget that not everyone wants the world to know what is going on between the two of you. So when you make your posts please do not be like my ex-boyfriend, Tails. Keep your private affairs private. Now he is is in pain which has changed him. I acknowledge and accept my part in that.

Now I let go and look to the future. My future with Scruffy. Whatever may be, I've chosen my path and he walks beside me.

It is our decision to stay on at his parents' home, renting a room. We can save money here, we can be happy here without worrying over someone that just wants trouble. I may lose my best friend along with my ex but that is yet to be seen. She wants me back but I will not leave my Scruffy to go deal with her druggie ex that is living off of her. This is pretty much public knowledge stuff, she uses Facebook and is far from shy about posting her business.So, I am merely repeating what she has shared, in a way.

Saturday I have to go get my things.  I have to see Tails and try not to fight or cry or anything. Just get my stuff.

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

First solo trip in a long time

Hello dear readers! I write to you from a small town near Springfield, MO. I am visiting my beloved Scruffy. A whole week with his family. What a delight it has been so far. My trip ends early Saturday.  I am absolutely charmed by his parents. It is going to crush a part of me I thought I had all locked up when I have to leave him behind. Its not the end of the world though. I will work out with his folks about getting him a ticket to visit me in February.  Yes, ticket. That's right my readers. Me, never leave the house alone, scaredy girl actually left the house and road Greyhound all the way down from Jefferson City, MO to see him. It took gumption, I tell you what. I would not trade this week for all the world....with one sad exception that would never happen that is.

I almost wish I lived here with them but that would mean leaving out our sweet Tails and I just could not do that to him. We both couldn't. We love him too much. It has to work out. It just has to.